Happy Mother's Day!

Wow so I totally feel like I have been neglecting this whole blog thingy. I haven't found time this past couple of weeks to really do anything on my computer. I finished watching 21+ you tube videos that were waiting for me! I was really behind on all my fav youtube peeps.

Today is Mother's Day, and all though I don't think you need a day to appreciate mother's.... here we are and I can't say it's not awesome to have another day for me. It's like when I was in school and we got Columbus Day off... it's like who cares? I got the day off of SCHOOL!! I was thinking about what I was doing on this day last year and it was actually really special. My hubby took me to this awesome resturaunt with awesome Italian food and we had a cocktail and the meals were large portions and amazing. It was a litte expensive but well worth it. After dinner we headed to the car and he got down on one knee and proposed to me!! We've been together for almost 5 years by then and have two kids... (about time right? lol). But it was perfect and we got married on our 5th anniversary (easier for him to remember the date... kidding). This mother's day was very low key. I don't care about presents and I know especially right now we are kind of financially strapped, so really any gesture today would have been nice. I hope all you mother's out there that deserve to celebrate this day will. For those of you who have awesome mother's in your life.... please appreciate them everyday. And I don't mean just presents, or thank you's. Pitch in, help out, lend a hand, I am sure that she will love that more..... and just hug them for no reason.... just because they are MOM. Happy Mother's Day you guys!

We're not in Kansas anymore....

Wow so I really had a crazy week! Let's talk about a few things that happened along the way. First I had to get rid of my dog. It was really sad, but I knew it was overall for the best. I just wish it hadn't come to that. He was getting too aggressive with one of the other dogs we have and there was too much tension between them. Well the tension snapped earlier this week and they had it out! It was horrible. I couldn't stop them for nothing in my life. I tried to stop them with everything I could throw at them. I was screaming... I was freaked out, and I thought they were never going to stop. I finally got a break and seperated them but the damage had already been done. I mean there was blood and paw nails... it wasn't good. I knew right then and there I couldn't have him in my house anymore. He was always such a good dog too. He was the first dog we got as a family and he was so quite and he never ever ever barked. He was so mellow and I loved that about him. Then we got Popeye when he was a puppy and Dexter (my other dog) didn't like him at first but since he was bigger he always put him in his place. Well Popeye grew to be a lot bigger then Dexter and I don't know maybe he felt like he was'nt in control anymore? Well they bonded until recently. We did get a new puppy over christmas which Popeye has adored having... Dexter on the other hand hated it, and I think that might be were the animosity sprung from. All I know is that my awesome dog became terrifying... and he spent less than an hour after the fight before my husband took him away. I hope that someone adopts him and that they are good people and they give him all the love and attention he deserves. Regardless of what happened he is a great dog, I just wouldn't have him around larger dogs anymore. I hate that he isn't here anymore and I miss him more than I thought I would. Popeye misses him too. He has been mopping around the house, he doesnt really want to play or do much of anything. I hope he snaps out of it soon. I knew it was the right decision because who knows what would happen the next time. I have children and what if they get caught in the mix? I can't have that on my mind all the time. I love you Dexter!! Yesterday we had a tornado rip through our town. I didn't witness anything and luckily my community was not affected by that aspect of mother nature, but we lost power from about 5pm till 1:30pm today. It kind of sucked cause we were soooo not prepared, we had to go around the neighborhood bumming barbeque supplies to eat dinner. I'm just happy that everyone I know is safe and we now have power!! So yea it's been quite a week, on top of the fact that I have been trying to lose weight. I wasn't able to excercise per say yesterday because as I was warming up the power went out, but I did make up for it today and I think that I am going to be able to keep this whole thing up!! Another week starts tomorrow... let's see what goodies that will bring. Ohhhh and I got my new E.L.F. stuff so I need to make another haul video... learned some neat tricks on my windows movie maker that I am going to try out when I edit these videos finally!!! Reese's Tece's

Mushy Moments.....

My husband is the best! We've had our fair show of ups and downs, but the ups out weigh the downs, at least that's how I like to feel about it. Today started off as an emotional day for my husband, which in turn became one for me. I don't like to see him upset. Well I gave him some space to take a walk, we talked about the issue, and then he took a nap, got up and decided he was going to go out to get dinner. We had previously decided we just wanted to stay home and just make something. We really didn't have a lot of money and I knew we could just eat something at home. Well he decided that he wanted to go get something and that it was going to be a surprise. Well he came home with pizza... of course... but he also came home with Mi Casita's .... which was AWESOME!! He knew I had been craving real Spanish food for awhile! Then we sat on the couch and watched Black Swan... a dude watching a ballet movie? Ok well Mila Kunis is in it.... and she is HOTT (with two T's) LoL ;) Either way the point is that, he was the one having the worse day and yet he did something to make me feel good! I love him.

Jesus Freak ;)

Yay! I really did a lot today. I started off the day really tired and cranky and the only thing i wanted to do was go back to sleep! I never really got to go back to sleep and my lazy ass finally got up at like 12:00pm and did my household duties that were neglected yesterday because I took my kids to a bowling birthday party for my friend Melanie's daughter Cataleena. It was really fun, got a lot of good family moments on the new camcorder! The kids had a great time, and I notice as they get older that it's easier for them to enjoy things like this. I have been spending a lot of bonding time with my kids this past week. I love it cause I feel like I am learning so much more about them and thier personalities. We have been having a really good time just hanging out reading books, digging dirt, singing, dancing like fools!! I also got an awesome bonus gift bag from Clinique courtesy of my shopoholic friend Katherine!! THANK YOU KATHERINE :) You'll see what's in the bag in a haul video with the E.L.F. stuff that I ordered two days ago. What an exciting week! As a young family it's easy to struggle and fall into the pits of depression due to being broke and constanly working only to hand everything over to continue living a decent life. If I had to do this the rest of my life to provide for my family I would do it over and over cause I love my little family, but it really sucks. Latley I have been feeling like I am at the cusp of something wonderful. I don't know what it is. I don't know why I feel this way.... but I feel like I have a new lease on life! I pray everyday and I feel like it really has improved my life in so many ways. I know that someone might come across this and think "Jesus Freak".... well I don't care. This is my lifestyle and I never inforce my thoughts or beliefs on other people. Either way... a lot of things have just started falling into place. Before I always had this empty hope that as a family we would have everything we wanted out of life. I always wanted it... but secretly I never really believed that it was going to happen. But now it's different.... it's changed. Wether it's my new positive outlook sending good vibes out into the universe or maybe God truly has a plan for me, I don't know, but all I know is that I am feeling good. The things that are going on in my life are kind of going on all by it's self. I feel like before I was struggling, I was stressed and unhappy... and now it's like lighter and freer and I dont know it just feels really good. I am appreciating things and loving things I never thought about before. So with this new lease on life I want to try (yet again) to lose this last bit of weight. I need to lose about 25lbs to get to my lovely goal of highschool weight. A lot of people think that it's crazy especially when they look at me and are like that's a lot of weight your gonna look to skinny... your gonna look wierd.... but it's like.... I USED TO BE THAT WEIGHT.... I LOOKED AWESOME compared to what I feel and look like now.... why can't I be that weight again? It isn't like I am aiming for something crazy something I have never been. People telling me they don't think it's realistic just makes me want to prove those people wrong. You aren't telling me that it's impossible for someone to be that weight, your telling me I CAN'T DO IT! Even if that's not what they meant... that's what I hear! So the weight loss begins tomorrow. Well I have been watching how much I eat the past few days already, but tomorrow I will actually excercise and eat even healthier. Can't wait.... I have been inspired by so many people on youtube following the progress and challanges they face. I feel like it is preparing me for what's to come. *ILOVEGERARDO on youtube is doing so well, even if it's a slow and steady race.... you are inspiring girl THANK YOU*

Grow Up Slow!!

ughh I am like totally dehydrating as we speak in my chair! It is soooooo freakin hot in this house! The AC is broken and it's way to hot for that right now. This is inane I mean it's only April it shouldn't be this hot already! Had a really great day today. Got to have some alone time with the hubby which is always good! Even if it was for a doctor's appointment. We always seem to have a good time no matter where we go! I went and got a gift for a children's bowling birthday tomorrow! My little gremlins are so excited! I got to spend time with them too today. We went outside to enjoy what was left of the day... digging outside for "treasure"... and teaching them how to turn and jump rope! It's amazing how much fun you can really have with toddlers! My kids are growing up too fast already... a part of me is a little happy because I felt like having them so close in age and the age that they were in was getting a bit overwhelming. Now that they are getting older some things are getting easier... entertaining them is not one of them. But I am sad that they are growing up so fast because I miss the little sweet smell of babies. The fact that you can cuddle them, and just grab them and hold them and rock them and kiss them up! My son is very affectionate when he feels like it... which feels amazing when he does it... but a lot of the times he doesn't want me bothering him and smothering him with kisses and hugs... he'll push me away and say "no mameeee". My daughter loves hugs but she doesn't like to get picked up... she feels very uncomfortable off the ground.... (no roller coaster in her future). Anyway I hope they don't grow up to fast... I do want to enjoy them... but also the older they get so do I :(

eu natural

Another beautiful day!

I spent all night last night planning this party. I came across a really great party planning checklist on evite.com. I actually found it by accident. It really does help you. Once you put in all the information like, what kind of party it is... when... what time... things like that. Then it breaks everything down into departments. It even tells you the deadline for each individual task that needs to be achieved. It even breaks down everything you need to do that day down to what time to do everything!! I am really excited about this party. I know it's like 79 days till then (they have a counter as well on the page).

Just did a quick shopping trip through the E.L.F. site. I think it has become my new best friend! i was sceptical at first and I don't think I got into enough detail with my E.L.F. haul video because it was such a nightmare to even make that day. I really thought that for the price I wasn't going to expect much from what I got. Surprisingly the products are great! I have never paid for expensive makeup products, so I can't compare it to anything like that, but for me it worked well and I was more than happy with everything I got from them. So much so I can't wait to get more! E.L.F. will now be my first stop whenever I am looking for some kind of makeup. I was playing with my hair again today... just bored. I tried going for a natural effortless look today with the face. I don't know what to do when this hot weather starts really kicking in and my face starts sweating.... I wonder what the youtube guru's do to deal with it?

oh and by the by GOD IS AWESOME TO ME!!!

Empanadas anyone?

So it's back to the grind. This was the week I was supposed to buckle down and get everything done. Besides making a few calls and appointments, I really did get a lot done. I paid every bill except 2 cell bills for this month! On Monday I went to see my recruiter and my car just died on me in the parking lot on my way out to go home!! Like sooo dead!! I tried to have someone help me jump it, but right before they jumped it the car turned on.... then OFF! So the guy was like, it's not the battery if it turned on. SO we didn't jump it. An hour and a half later... I find someone to give me a ride home! I need a new car :( I couldn't sleep the other night I ended up having like a spa night lol. The hubby and kids were sleeping and I decided I was going to take that opportunity. I took the longest shower EVER!! I took my time I exfoliated... shaved... buffed...washed... shampooed... conditioned...EVERYTHING!! Then I got out of the shower and braided my hair, painted my toe nails and started working on a crossword puzzle!!! I'm telling you... it was amazing!!! I still couldn't sleep when I was done with all of that and I started thinking about my son and how his birthday is coming up in late June. He has been doing so well with his speech and he has learned and grown a lot. I am so proud of him and I really want to celebrate his 3rd birthday! So I have about 3 months till his birthday and there is sooo much to do on top of all the things I have to do with the rest of my life!! YAY I can't wait I am so excited!! I have been cooking a lot more lately as well. AS a family we grew tired of the every day meals we were eating and wanted to change it up a bit. I started by making the Chinese Food when Katherine came over, then it was the cheesy hot dog crescent Rolls, and then last night I made Empanadas!! They were soo good. I had made meat and plain cheese Empanadas before but last night I made meat and cheese and Broccoli and cheese. They were sooo good!! The whole family loved it soooo much and it made me so happy cause it's rare that everyone is happy at the same time. What else should I make? Well till next time..... hbdm