Happy Mother's Day!

Wow so I totally feel like I have been neglecting this whole blog thingy. I haven't found time this past couple of weeks to really do anything on my computer. I finished watching 21+ you tube videos that were waiting for me! I was really behind on all my fav youtube peeps.

Today is Mother's Day, and all though I don't think you need a day to appreciate mother's.... here we are and I can't say it's not awesome to have another day for me. It's like when I was in school and we got Columbus Day off... it's like who cares? I got the day off of SCHOOL!! I was thinking about what I was doing on this day last year and it was actually really special. My hubby took me to this awesome resturaunt with awesome Italian food and we had a cocktail and the meals were large portions and amazing. It was a litte expensive but well worth it. After dinner we headed to the car and he got down on one knee and proposed to me!! We've been together for almost 5 years by then and have two kids... (about time right? lol). But it was perfect and we got married on our 5th anniversary (easier for him to remember the date... kidding). This mother's day was very low key. I don't care about presents and I know especially right now we are kind of financially strapped, so really any gesture today would have been nice. I hope all you mother's out there that deserve to celebrate this day will. For those of you who have awesome mother's in your life.... please appreciate them everyday. And I don't mean just presents, or thank you's. Pitch in, help out, lend a hand, I am sure that she will love that more..... and just hug them for no reason.... just because they are MOM. Happy Mother's Day you guys!

We're not in Kansas anymore....

Wow so I really had a crazy week! Let's talk about a few things that happened along the way. First I had to get rid of my dog. It was really sad, but I knew it was overall for the best. I just wish it hadn't come to that. He was getting too aggressive with one of the other dogs we have and there was too much tension between them. Well the tension snapped earlier this week and they had it out! It was horrible. I couldn't stop them for nothing in my life. I tried to stop them with everything I could throw at them. I was screaming... I was freaked out, and I thought they were never going to stop. I finally got a break and seperated them but the damage had already been done. I mean there was blood and paw nails... it wasn't good. I knew right then and there I couldn't have him in my house anymore. He was always such a good dog too. He was the first dog we got as a family and he was so quite and he never ever ever barked. He was so mellow and I loved that about him. Then we got Popeye when he was a puppy and Dexter (my other dog) didn't like him at first but since he was bigger he always put him in his place. Well Popeye grew to be a lot bigger then Dexter and I don't know maybe he felt like he was'nt in control anymore? Well they bonded until recently. We did get a new puppy over christmas which Popeye has adored having... Dexter on the other hand hated it, and I think that might be were the animosity sprung from. All I know is that my awesome dog became terrifying... and he spent less than an hour after the fight before my husband took him away. I hope that someone adopts him and that they are good people and they give him all the love and attention he deserves. Regardless of what happened he is a great dog, I just wouldn't have him around larger dogs anymore. I hate that he isn't here anymore and I miss him more than I thought I would. Popeye misses him too. He has been mopping around the house, he doesnt really want to play or do much of anything. I hope he snaps out of it soon. I knew it was the right decision because who knows what would happen the next time. I have children and what if they get caught in the mix? I can't have that on my mind all the time. I love you Dexter!! Yesterday we had a tornado rip through our town. I didn't witness anything and luckily my community was not affected by that aspect of mother nature, but we lost power from about 5pm till 1:30pm today. It kind of sucked cause we were soooo not prepared, we had to go around the neighborhood bumming barbeque supplies to eat dinner. I'm just happy that everyone I know is safe and we now have power!! So yea it's been quite a week, on top of the fact that I have been trying to lose weight. I wasn't able to excercise per say yesterday because as I was warming up the power went out, but I did make up for it today and I think that I am going to be able to keep this whole thing up!! Another week starts tomorrow... let's see what goodies that will bring. Ohhhh and I got my new E.L.F. stuff so I need to make another haul video... learned some neat tricks on my windows movie maker that I am going to try out when I edit these videos finally!!! Reese's Tece's

Mushy Moments.....

My husband is the best! We've had our fair show of ups and downs, but the ups out weigh the downs, at least that's how I like to feel about it. Today started off as an emotional day for my husband, which in turn became one for me. I don't like to see him upset. Well I gave him some space to take a walk, we talked about the issue, and then he took a nap, got up and decided he was going to go out to get dinner. We had previously decided we just wanted to stay home and just make something. We really didn't have a lot of money and I knew we could just eat something at home. Well he decided that he wanted to go get something and that it was going to be a surprise. Well he came home with pizza... of course... but he also came home with Mi Casita's .... which was AWESOME!! He knew I had been craving real Spanish food for awhile! Then we sat on the couch and watched Black Swan... a dude watching a ballet movie? Ok well Mila Kunis is in it.... and she is HOTT (with two T's) LoL ;) Either way the point is that, he was the one having the worse day and yet he did something to make me feel good! I love him.

Jesus Freak ;)

Yay! I really did a lot today. I started off the day really tired and cranky and the only thing i wanted to do was go back to sleep! I never really got to go back to sleep and my lazy ass finally got up at like 12:00pm and did my household duties that were neglected yesterday because I took my kids to a bowling birthday party for my friend Melanie's daughter Cataleena. It was really fun, got a lot of good family moments on the new camcorder! The kids had a great time, and I notice as they get older that it's easier for them to enjoy things like this. I have been spending a lot of bonding time with my kids this past week. I love it cause I feel like I am learning so much more about them and thier personalities. We have been having a really good time just hanging out reading books, digging dirt, singing, dancing like fools!! I also got an awesome bonus gift bag from Clinique courtesy of my shopoholic friend Katherine!! THANK YOU KATHERINE :) You'll see what's in the bag in a haul video with the E.L.F. stuff that I ordered two days ago. What an exciting week! As a young family it's easy to struggle and fall into the pits of depression due to being broke and constanly working only to hand everything over to continue living a decent life. If I had to do this the rest of my life to provide for my family I would do it over and over cause I love my little family, but it really sucks. Latley I have been feeling like I am at the cusp of something wonderful. I don't know what it is. I don't know why I feel this way.... but I feel like I have a new lease on life! I pray everyday and I feel like it really has improved my life in so many ways. I know that someone might come across this and think "Jesus Freak".... well I don't care. This is my lifestyle and I never inforce my thoughts or beliefs on other people. Either way... a lot of things have just started falling into place. Before I always had this empty hope that as a family we would have everything we wanted out of life. I always wanted it... but secretly I never really believed that it was going to happen. But now it's different.... it's changed. Wether it's my new positive outlook sending good vibes out into the universe or maybe God truly has a plan for me, I don't know, but all I know is that I am feeling good. The things that are going on in my life are kind of going on all by it's self. I feel like before I was struggling, I was stressed and unhappy... and now it's like lighter and freer and I dont know it just feels really good. I am appreciating things and loving things I never thought about before. So with this new lease on life I want to try (yet again) to lose this last bit of weight. I need to lose about 25lbs to get to my lovely goal of highschool weight. A lot of people think that it's crazy especially when they look at me and are like that's a lot of weight your gonna look to skinny... your gonna look wierd.... but it's like.... I USED TO BE THAT WEIGHT.... I LOOKED AWESOME compared to what I feel and look like now.... why can't I be that weight again? It isn't like I am aiming for something crazy something I have never been. People telling me they don't think it's realistic just makes me want to prove those people wrong. You aren't telling me that it's impossible for someone to be that weight, your telling me I CAN'T DO IT! Even if that's not what they meant... that's what I hear! So the weight loss begins tomorrow. Well I have been watching how much I eat the past few days already, but tomorrow I will actually excercise and eat even healthier. Can't wait.... I have been inspired by so many people on youtube following the progress and challanges they face. I feel like it is preparing me for what's to come. *ILOVEGERARDO on youtube is doing so well, even if it's a slow and steady race.... you are inspiring girl THANK YOU*

Grow Up Slow!!

ughh I am like totally dehydrating as we speak in my chair! It is soooooo freakin hot in this house! The AC is broken and it's way to hot for that right now. This is inane I mean it's only April it shouldn't be this hot already! Had a really great day today. Got to have some alone time with the hubby which is always good! Even if it was for a doctor's appointment. We always seem to have a good time no matter where we go! I went and got a gift for a children's bowling birthday tomorrow! My little gremlins are so excited! I got to spend time with them too today. We went outside to enjoy what was left of the day... digging outside for "treasure"... and teaching them how to turn and jump rope! It's amazing how much fun you can really have with toddlers! My kids are growing up too fast already... a part of me is a little happy because I felt like having them so close in age and the age that they were in was getting a bit overwhelming. Now that they are getting older some things are getting easier... entertaining them is not one of them. But I am sad that they are growing up so fast because I miss the little sweet smell of babies. The fact that you can cuddle them, and just grab them and hold them and rock them and kiss them up! My son is very affectionate when he feels like it... which feels amazing when he does it... but a lot of the times he doesn't want me bothering him and smothering him with kisses and hugs... he'll push me away and say "no mameeee". My daughter loves hugs but she doesn't like to get picked up... she feels very uncomfortable off the ground.... (no roller coaster in her future). Anyway I hope they don't grow up to fast... I do want to enjoy them... but also the older they get so do I :(

eu natural

Another beautiful day!

I spent all night last night planning this party. I came across a really great party planning checklist on evite.com. I actually found it by accident. It really does help you. Once you put in all the information like, what kind of party it is... when... what time... things like that. Then it breaks everything down into departments. It even tells you the deadline for each individual task that needs to be achieved. It even breaks down everything you need to do that day down to what time to do everything!! I am really excited about this party. I know it's like 79 days till then (they have a counter as well on the page).

Just did a quick shopping trip through the E.L.F. site. I think it has become my new best friend! i was sceptical at first and I don't think I got into enough detail with my E.L.F. haul video because it was such a nightmare to even make that day. I really thought that for the price I wasn't going to expect much from what I got. Surprisingly the products are great! I have never paid for expensive makeup products, so I can't compare it to anything like that, but for me it worked well and I was more than happy with everything I got from them. So much so I can't wait to get more! E.L.F. will now be my first stop whenever I am looking for some kind of makeup. I was playing with my hair again today... just bored. I tried going for a natural effortless look today with the face. I don't know what to do when this hot weather starts really kicking in and my face starts sweating.... I wonder what the youtube guru's do to deal with it?

oh and by the by GOD IS AWESOME TO ME!!!

Empanadas anyone?

So it's back to the grind. This was the week I was supposed to buckle down and get everything done. Besides making a few calls and appointments, I really did get a lot done. I paid every bill except 2 cell bills for this month! On Monday I went to see my recruiter and my car just died on me in the parking lot on my way out to go home!! Like sooo dead!! I tried to have someone help me jump it, but right before they jumped it the car turned on.... then OFF! So the guy was like, it's not the battery if it turned on. SO we didn't jump it. An hour and a half later... I find someone to give me a ride home! I need a new car :( I couldn't sleep the other night I ended up having like a spa night lol. The hubby and kids were sleeping and I decided I was going to take that opportunity. I took the longest shower EVER!! I took my time I exfoliated... shaved... buffed...washed... shampooed... conditioned...EVERYTHING!! Then I got out of the shower and braided my hair, painted my toe nails and started working on a crossword puzzle!!! I'm telling you... it was amazing!!! I still couldn't sleep when I was done with all of that and I started thinking about my son and how his birthday is coming up in late June. He has been doing so well with his speech and he has learned and grown a lot. I am so proud of him and I really want to celebrate his 3rd birthday! So I have about 3 months till his birthday and there is sooo much to do on top of all the things I have to do with the rest of my life!! YAY I can't wait I am so excited!! I have been cooking a lot more lately as well. AS a family we grew tired of the every day meals we were eating and wanted to change it up a bit. I started by making the Chinese Food when Katherine came over, then it was the cheesy hot dog crescent Rolls, and then last night I made Empanadas!! They were soo good. I had made meat and plain cheese Empanadas before but last night I made meat and cheese and Broccoli and cheese. They were sooo good!! The whole family loved it soooo much and it made me so happy cause it's rare that everyone is happy at the same time. What else should I make? Well till next time..... hbdm

Two Steps Forward....One Step Back :(

So after a really good week of getting things done... we slacked again. We got nothing done this week other than my husbands doctor appointments. I have to buckle down make a list and starting Monday I will check everything off my list one at a time and hopefully by the end of the week I will have nothing left to do. We'll see how this goes. I did try to get a haul video in. I tried to record my ELF haul, it was a disaster. I was too lazy to put any makeup on.... and then the dogs were barking like crazy!! I am going to have to do some serious editing!! If only I had some good editing software.... GRRRRRRrrrrrr.... the halt of artistic process... how sad. I did make an effort to try and do my hair at least for the video. I was actually just kind of messing around with my hair. It was super greasy and totally in need of a wash but I really wanted to make the video. I felt it was going to be my best opportunity. I have been wanting to do more videos but with everyone home it doesn't seem to be working out that way. Usually I would just try to record something maybe in another room while the kids are sleeping or they are calm and watching TV... but there is no where I can go with everyone here. Anywho as soon as I go ahead and edit this haul video and my first haul video... gosh I have sooo much to do. I need to WAKE THE HELL UP!!

P*S*.... I love jammin to my Pandora and I love the new Marie Callender's Pasta Al Dente!! It's cheap and MMMMm GOOD! Right up my alley!

The Weekend Edition

So yay it's Saturday. Now Saturdays as a mom and wife don't consist of fist pumping at some hot new club.... no it's quite different. But this Saturday is going to be a good Saturday! My besty Katherine is coming over with GAMES.... and HARRY POTTER VI!! And I am attempting to make Mandarin/Orange Chicken and Broccoli with fried rice!!! OMG it's totally off the top of my head like I ever made it before... wish me luck :) We also got these frozen Daiquiri and Margarita drink things... so we are going to have a BBBBBLLLAST! Super excited!



I'll keep you posted!

Brown Bear Brown Bear.....

Wow another great day. The weather is just so inviting. Did a lot of personal errands today, feel like I got a lot done, still not finished exactly. Have a lot to do this week can't be lazy at all! I think maybe this week of having things to do and places to go will give me the kick in the ass I need to stop being so lazy! Kids got their shots today (my poor babies). My daughter who just turned 4 got 5 shots!!!! That's insane to me, I remember getting shots as a kid but I don't think I ever got 5 shots in one sitting. I could understand if she was behind on shots... but this was a regular scheduled routine vaccination... and that's a lot of stuff to be pumping into my child at such a young age I believe. I know that vaccinations are mandatory and I get why they are, but I really do wonder sometimes if it's worth all the crap that's put into their little bodies to prevent stuff that hasn't happened in decades! I don't know I do it cause it's mandatory (one) and (two) I got them and I turned out fine... didn't I?

On another note.... I am so proud of my son Damien!! I love you baba!! He attempted to read a book to his speech therapist today and he did so well!! I mean he is only 2 but he basically just memorized the book... but the fact that we could understand what he is saying or trying to say. I am so proud of his development, and how far he has come, not only with his speech issues, but his personality as well. He has really come a long way, and his personality is really coming out of it's shell. I thank everyone that had a hand in giving my son the tools he needed to get through his issues and show him that he can do it!

I love my Family :)

Spring is in the Air!!

Wow today was a truly beautiful day! The sun was out but not overwhelming at all. The temperature was perfect. I always look forward to spring weather, but it seems like it goes by so fast. It's like we have cold weather... then breaks of awesome weather like today and then as soon as you realize how awesome the weather is... it's too hot! It's like whatever happened to spring and fall? It's as though Winter and Summer don't want to share with the other seasons.

Any who I just wanted to say I posted another video today. It's not something I had planed on doing on my YouTube channel. Usually I am really shy about stuff like that. I get really embarrassed when I sing and realize that other people can hear me... but I thought what the hell... no one watches my stuff anyway right? Well I have to work on my first video haul and make a few more videos coming soon. If only I could stop being so lazy :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xM7gDm_ykbo

E.L.F. Yourself!

My ELF stuff came today!!! Supperr Exxcited!! Can't wait to do the haul! That's it.... stay tuned!!

I MEAN it!

When your about to become a parent, you start to see how other people deal with their children and you think about how you would do things differently or maybe the same exact way. No matter how many books you read, and how many people you watch or kids you babysit... you are never prepared! I have a sister in law who as it seemed every time I was at the house was screaming her head off! I mean this woman has no patience it seems. I never understood why she was always screaming! Mind you she does have 5 children all in pretty close age. But I never understood her tactics and it was always something we just made fun of. I never sat down and talked to her about the stresses of being a mother, especially with so many children! At the time I didn't have any kids and just never saw her side of things. Once I knew I was having children I envisioned myself as being a different mom than I turned out to be. At times I can be more patient then I ever thought possible, and other times the fuse is only about an inch long! My kids are 1yr and 3 months apart. Sometimes I feel like I have twins! I mean they are always fighting over the same toys, and the fact that I have a boy and a girl, you would think they would want to play with different things.... well they don't. They don't care if it's a manly toy machine gun or a platinum pink super barbie... they both want to play with it! Lately I have been feeling overwhelmed by a lot of stuff and my children are one of them. They seem to never take me seriously. I can talk down to them, I can send them to time-out, I can threaten going to bed.. or taking something away from them... it doesn't matter what it is I tell them.... they act as though I don't exist! I am not one to give empty threats either, I mean what I say and I act accordingly..... and yet they will defy me every chance they get. Now my kids are only 2 and 4 years old.... easy you would think to control the little beasts right? I hate having to play the role of the "bad cop" and yet it seems to be the role I always land. I get so frustrated sometimes and I feel helpless... my kids don't respect me I think, they don't listen to me, they think I'm a joke. Left and right I get talked back to... I get temper tantrums.... I get straight NO to my face! It drives me insane sometimes, because I try so hard to stay calm and to keep my cool.... but sometimes I SNAP... sometimes I blow and Mommy... gives up! I start screaming like a crazy person... I keep repeating myself like a broken record... I throw things...(I got to look intimidating some how), I just seriously flip out. And then what happens? People start listening... people start making moves and doing what I ask of them... but why... why... does it have to get to that point? I don't understand what I am doing wrong... why do people feel the need to dismiss my emotions and thoughts? Why do I have to have a near heart attack inducing fit of rage for someone to listen to me? Then I look like the crazy one... overreacting.... but no one seems to understand where I am coming from. I realized that I need to chill out... I need to let everyone just swallow themselves up.... I have to just focus on the main things... are my children happy? are they healthy? are they safe? Maybe everything else will eventually fall in place... maybe... I just won't care if it does anymore. At the end of the day you can be susie homemaker and have an awesome house, awesome well be-haved children, but we aren't all like that. I need to embrace the fact that I will not be the mom I thought I was going to be.... but at least I'm not my mom!

Hey Stranger!

Omg... it's been awhile!

I hate when my card doesn't work at the gas station pump so I walk into the store in a rush (as always) and I am stuck behind some crazy bag lady buying lottery tickets!! WTF lady move over and scratch your cards with your pinky nail somewhere else! I NEED GAS!!

I decided I was going to have a go at this blogging stuff again. Let's see how long this lasts. I have started a youtube channel and I guess it's kind of like this blog.. a whole lot of not much! I ordered some stuff from E.L.F... and I am so excited to see it.. have to do another haul video!! I need some movie editing software but I sure has heck do not want to pay out of my a$$ for Premire just for my dinky youtube videos.

*side note* Damien broke my glasses. Just snapped it right in half! So I can either wear my old glasses that have some chips in them... or really really cross my fingers and hope I can pull of geek chic! Wish me luck!

Peace
Tece :)